Hebrews 6:4-6— ‘For in the case of those who have once been enlightened and have tasted of the heavenly gift and have been made partakers of the Holy Spirit, and have tasted the good word of God and the powers of the age to come, and then have fallen away, it is impossible to renew them again to repentance, since they again crucify to themselves the Son of God and put Him to open shame.’
Former Desiring God and TGC Author Paul Maxwell Describes in VIVID Detail how he Came to Lose his Faith
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“I became a Christian at a…conference.”
“I wanted to understand the Bible. So I went to…Bible College.”
“…a lot of people in seminary go there because they sense a vocational calling on their lives…– that was never me. I wanted to understand God, who is this God that I’ve devoted my life to?”
“…when I announced that I wasn’t a Christian anymore, I think it was a combination of that seed that had been planted when I was 19, where I learned to kind of perforate my faith experience with genuine questioning…”
Having read a ‘self-esteem’ book that changed his whole mindset and worldview: “And [the] claim in that book is essentially, in order to have the cognitive architecture of mental wellness, begins with esteeming the self, honoring the self, loving the self. And his definition of self-esteem, was what allowed me to let go of the version of Christianity I had held onto for so long…”
“And I realised if I have to choose between at least the way I’m manifesting and experiencing God through Christianity, and having self-esteem defined as ‘having the coordination of self-respect and self-confidence,’ I need self-esteem.”
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This is what not knowing God looks like; what being “converted” under false pretenses looks like; what “devoting your life” to something you’ve not actually been eternally transformed by looks like.
Apostacy is not a faithful Christian giving up or losing hope—or “deconstructing”—but rather it is for those who the phrase ‘I never knew you; depart from me’ Christ directs. To truly know Christ is to know the only hope man has in this life.
We must be mindful, and prayerful, of the gospel we present, who we present it to, and how we share it. We are not trying to simply “sell” a mindset and worldview by the wisdom of men, but we seek to be the hands and feet of Christ that deliver the incomparable power of God—through His Word—to the lost souls of men.